I'm gunna scream just for a moment

(crosspost from FA)

So not many people don't know anything about me beyond my artwork, and part of that is just that I don't like talking. I don't like talking about myself or my life much, and I don't see myself as a very interesting person. I have strange opinions and a strange way of taking interest in things, I probably come off as uneducated very often too. I figured I'd take a moment to tell people about myself, at least once on this big wide web, so that others may decide if they actually want to try pursuing a friendship with me. So let's get into it.

I'm nearly 25, a female, and asexual. Those things make it weird for me trying to make friends, because I'm a paranoid person. I'm also sex repulsed, kind of, mostly in the way that I don't give a shit and don't care to hear about what's going on with people's genitals, but sometimes I like to look at sexual art and fetish art because it interests me out of morbid curiosity. I often feel like if I try to befriend people it'll degrade to the point of everything is about sex, some way some how. The idea of whether I want to have kids or not is also something very stupid to me. I have a husband, when and if we choose that life is up to us and no one else. Now that I've got that bit of bullshit out of the way, let's get down to the heart of me.

I have a weird way of viewing everything, my mind often flip-flops between happy and hopeful and determined to depressed and a pit of sorrow. This is a big reason I don't talk much. I don't always like people knowing what I'm thinking, and it really bothers me when people think they know me. The things I like I tend to really like, some times almost obsessively. I'm often referred to being childlike just because I'd much rather be blunt and honest then try to sugar coat things. I also collect the things I like, but the biggest problem with that is the cheapest way to collect those things is to go to the toy section of the store. And it might seem pretty damn dumb, but I've come to realize I still have a good bit of my "inner emo/goth" from when I was a teen still left in me. I also get tired of things easily, physically and mentally.

I love doing a lot of types of art. Crafting, drawing, painting, cooking, gardening.. But I get distracted easily, and I often start big projects that take me forever just because I bite off more than I'm prepared for. Often I feel like time doesn't go by at the right speed for me to get these things done properly. I've been working on a webcomic and universe for it for almost a decade, most of the art I post has something to do with it in some way. I've got somewhere around 15 fursuits I want to make or maybe even get made, and several more cosplays on top of those. I've started one of my fursuits, but I've only got the head foamed-- life has put it on hold for financial reasons. I have ideas for plush and plush props I want to do, most revolving around reptiles. I love to cook, if I had all day and a big kitchen I would probably spend several hours each week baking cookies and candies and cakes. If I had more space, I would have a garden specialized towards my pets. They give me a lot of inspiration for some of my projects. I have two beardies, a green anole, and a sulcata tortoise, and I love them all dearly. The biggest reason I want to do paid art is to make their lives more comfortable.

Some of my life goals are really weird, but I'm still changing them every few years. I've always wanted to do something related to herpetology and paleontology, and I've considered starting my career off as a wildlife researcher or conservationist, and maybe moving on to paleontology later. The end goal would be working with living dinosaurs, if that ever ends up a thing. Somewhere in there I wouldn't mind fitting in scientific illustrator, that would be pretty damn cool.

I guess I should move on to the things that I like, beyond my career goals. I can be kind of weird about my interests, sometimes I go ham with what I like for several days straight, then I take a break for a couple months. It all depends. I like playing video games, and I really want to play multiplayer on some of them, but the whole "binge-and-break" method is something I get very self-conscious of. I love World of Warcraft, Guild Wars 2, Minecraft, ARK, Starbound, Undertale, Journey, Pokemon, Monster Hunter, Forza Horizon. I've recently played some of No Man's Sky and enjoyed that. I'm looking forward to Saurian and Night in the Woods. My preferred platform is my PC, but rarely I'll play console games or handhelds. I like a lot of the "popular" cartoons, but fuck. If you don't, I don't care. I won't try to stomp you into the ground over our differences, but at least respect that I like them because I'm probably gunna do my best not to bitch about you liking and talking about something I don't care about. Right now I'm into Steven Universe, Star VS. the Forces of Evil, and My Little Pony, but I also like Over the Garden Wall and Gravity Falls. I like a lot of Disney, Dreamworks, Laika, and Studio Ghibli movies. The Good Dinosaur is fucking great as it is, fight me.

Music-wise, The Used and Paramore are my top two favorite bands. I also love Panic! at the Disco, Vitamin String Quartet, Fallout Boy, My Chemical Romance, and AFI. But There's still a lot more bands I like, and sometimes I only like a few songs from certain bands. This list is a lot of the stuff I'm listening to lately: play.spotify.com/user/autumnal…

As for little random things, I love Autumn stuff. I also like some wintery stuff. Knitting is kind of fun, it's a medium I test every now and then, it's fun.



Well, I can't think of too much else. If any one wants to talk, I'm here. I get extremely anxious trying to talk to people, so please just give me some time to reply and try to warm up to folks.

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